Sunday, October 09, 2005

Desolation of a Loveless World.

In this desolate land of pain and sorrow,
a heart is that which may only be borrowed.
for those who win this loveless game,
they steal your heart to enhance their fame.

Those of us who are left behind,
we try to reason but lost in mind.
stumble about hopeing to live,
but help is something no one will give.

Now I am left alone and cold,
Perhaps till wrinkled, sad, and old.
for In this desolate land of pain and sorrow,
I'll hope and dream, for someone, tomorrow.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

A Few Changes.

Since my last devastating break up...Where I discovered I was being cheated on, lied to, repeatedly...and so on...(that's another story that I'm not going to get into). I've decided to change a few things about my personality. I'll admit I've been a bit insecure, and a bit of a depressed & damaged "poor me" kind of guy. I've always hated it, but I've never really done much to change it because I've always justified it with "It's not my fault, THEY cheated on me, and that's never right" Which of course is absolutely true. It DOES and is supposed to hurt when you get cheated on, and if you don't care that someone cheats on you, or with you, then your not much of a mann now are you. (That or you don't care because your just as likely to cheat on some people).

But getting to the point, I've come to realise that as much as it's not my fault that I got that way, it IS my fault that I let myself STAY that way. So I'm therefor changing some of my attitude's towards life. Professionaly I will pretty much be the same, since I always do amazing there. I'm going to start beleiving in myself more, because although I'm not the hottest guy out there, I'm not ugly, and I can be very sweet. I'm not going to adopt the perspective of "taking what I can get", I'm going more for a "Taking what I want so long as it's not already taken" attitude. I'm going to try to be more outgoing, I've already been doing this and I'm having more fun. And people seem to be having more fun with me when I'm around. I love this. So I encourage people to meet me, and enjoy the benefits of having me around. Otherwise YOU are missing out.

- The Steven. (A.K.A. DJ D-Nyed)

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Cheating Stereotype

I've always been aware of one of the stereotypes out there that television and men-bashers love to play on that men are born cheaters. One thing very few people are aware of is that Woman statistically cheat on men more often, and more women cheat on their men then the vice versa. The reson men get such a bad rap, is to be brutally honest, women are smarter about it. When a guy cheats on his girlfriend, wife, or whomever is special enough that fooling around with someone else can be construed as cheating, He usually is pretty happy about it, his next few days will change, he may brag about it to his friends, he might leave condom wrappers lying around, he may have bought her dinner, movie, things like that. Dumb things that show up on his visa bill, things that a little poking around his place will identify, things that by hanging aroud his social groups you can find out.

However, when a girl cheats on her boyfriend, women have one major advantage, it's the GUY "under the gentleman must pay for everything" stereotype (Don't get me wrong, I love paying for my girlfriend when I can, I just don't think it should HAVE to be that way, we are BOTH human), who pays for the meals, and anything like that. Leaving the girl with less of a paper trail to cover up, the guy and the girl usually (but not always) prefer to go to the guys place for a night of mutually slashing her boyfriend's heart, and when she's done she can use sexual leverage (or other ways) to keep him pretty shut up about it. Then she tells no one, not her best friend, not her boyfriend, not anyone, she doesn't even talk to the person she cheated WITH about it unless she plans to do it again. And as if all this wasn't enough to give them a homefield advantage, When a guy cheats on a girl, everyone quickly sides witht he girl, pampering her, giving her sympathy, bashing him, and all that. When a girl cheats on a guy, the guy doesn't always make it so public, some guys are so ego-centric that they don't hardly tell anyone, and for the rest of the time, a few friends might do some women bashing once or twice at the bar or at work, but honestly, they don't care becuase of a macho-stereotype.

I know there are girls out there who have been savagely cheated on by some really bad guys out there who are players, but the reason that's such a big story, and a popular bash when it happens is because men are so utterly stupid about it, they do all the goundwork, but after they get what they want they pack up and leave, they get dressed and go home, they send the girl home, or they simply ditch the girl and forget about it. After they have gotten off, they want nothing more to do with it. But when a girl is finished, she actually cleans up after herself, she workes to conceal what has happened. She follows up.

Don't misunderstand one thing, This doesn't apply to everyone, some girls cheat and are quite open about it, and some men couldn't be better about cheating. There are a few men out there who can't stand cheating, who couldn't live with themselves to cheat one someone they love, who don't even fantasize about celebrities, who could have 100 naked, hormone raging, beutiful, sexy, women chasing him, wanting him, and who would honestly rather be snuggling with their girlfriend (don't beleive me, try me). And I'm sure that at least 1 women somewhere on this planet Might like to be loyal to only the one their with and has no interest in someone else at any time. I'm not saying everyone cheats. I'm just saying that sometimes the stereotypes can be skewed a little bit.

Remember those childhood dumb games about who's smarter, women or men. I beleive that neither is generally more intelligent, I beleive that "GENERALLY SPEAKING" Men are more sports adept, more technologically capable, mecanically capable, and that women are more socially capable, more psychologically manipulative, and more esthetically knowlagable. Keeping in mind that what I'm saying may sound sexist, but it's no more sexist than "The gentleman should always pay" or "men cheat more then women" Aren't those sexist? Of course they are sexist, they are not only sexist, they are grossly wrong, and If you can say those, then I can put these true and honest points on the table and be no worse.

Now I'm not trying to bash women, but what I AM trying to push forth is that I'm very tired of being the guy who never cheats, never even wants to cheat, and gets accused of being that type of guy, having people assume it's what I'll do, and being labled as a person who will stop at nothing to do the one thing that disgusts me most. I've been cheated on BY the majority of the women I've dated, and I've never cheated on a single one, I've been accused of it a couple of times, and I've had to fight to prove it wrong each time. The girls however, cheat on my, and I have to Fight to prove they did, even to them, when they knew they did, and even when they ended up admitting it to me, most people found it difficult to beleive that that many girls would cheat on me, and I've never cheated. Why is this so hard to beleive? Simply because I'm a guy, and the stereotype is, guys cheat more then women.

I wish people cared more about the people they choose to date. If you want to have a relationship where your free to screw any other thing that walks, then DON'T BE GIRLFRIEND AND BOYFRIEND, Be Friends with benefits, THAT'S what it's for, I'm not saying that friends with benefits is a good and right thing to do, but at least both people know what it is, no one's lieing to each other, it's not commiting to someone, and then cheating, there's no relationship to cheat on. At least it's honest enough not to pretend it's something it's not just to end up savagly hurting someone.

Another reason men cheating is such a big deal, elaborates on a point I made earlier, when women are cheated on, not only do they get all the sympathy, but it's a huge emotional thing. when men are cheated on, a few of them cry (myself included, and I'm not ashamed to admit it), but most of them keep it all in, they may go to a bar, hang out with friend, bury how they feel, and try their best to get over it. There for when men are cheated on, it's usually only a rumou amoung a social group, when a girl is cheated on, there's everything but a story on the channel 4 news about it.

In closing I want to re-iterate that I'm not trying to women-bash, I'm just trying to both vent my frustrations of being the one who's always blamed for the very things that I'm a victum of, and have never perpatrated, and to imform people that they stereotype isn't always true. If stereotypes were always true, then every man would be good at sports, every women would be weak, every black person wuold steal, every indian would gamble, everyone would loose their driving ability as soon as their hair turned gray, and the world would be a different hell then it is today. But none of these stereotypes are true. I'm a man and I'm no good at sports, I know some very athletic women, Skin color means absolutly nothing, same with ethnic background (when I say it means nothing, I mean it doesn't make you a good or bad person, not that it's a good idea to discard your heritage), Some people are compitent drivers well into their late years, and stereotypes abroad are usually quite wrong and used as a way for either television to help structure entertainment (at realities expence) or used as yet another manipulation tool (somestimes used by the very women who cheat, to help their case). There's not much else I can say really. But if this text offends you because you feel that your an honest person who doesn't cheat, never cheated, and could never cheat, then GREAT! Leave me a comment, I'd love to get to know you. And In that extremely scarce and rare circumstance, I apologise to you specifically, but keep in mind that I'm talking about genders in a general sence. And with the exception of those who have cheated on me, and those who I have known to cheat, I'm not talking about anyone specifically.

The underlying problem is that people just don't care enough. And the paradox of it is, the few who do care enough, are hurt, by those who don't, or by each other mistaking them for the many who don't.

- DJ D-Nyed. (Steven Wells)

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

I really hate winter

I really hate winter.

I know it has christmas, and I'll admit I love christmas, but honestly, I could use with less snow and more warm summer days (& nights). Summer has a few pitfalls, like no ice skateing, sweat, bugs, and lazyness.

What's the worst thing summer brings, sunburns, you can still get those in the winter, it's just harder, The bugs don't all go away, SOME MOVE INTO YOUR HOME, You can still go skateing indoors (or just go rollerbladeing almost anywhere). Lazyness can be even worse if you have to dress into 15 layers of clothing and jacket before leaving the home. Winter brings, coldnes, colds, ice, snow, jackets, boots, lack of swimming, reduced transportation area (for those who don't drive), less social activity, less outdoor fun, more being cooped up indoors, shoveling the driveway, snowbanks, reduced visibility, unsave driving, more expenses on cabs/speedy/bus, numb skin, cold sweats, soggy socks, no camping, no fun in the rain, less stars (more overcast), dead grass, nasty looking trees, no going out late at night when your bored for a warm walk...wherever, salt stains, muddy carpets, sleet, slush, high puddles, dirt where the snowbanks thaw, dead outdoor plants, no outdoor nature, closed parks, less fireworks, frozen snot, cold wetness everywhere, wet muddy footsteps in every mall and theater, constantly taking your jacket on and off, no biking/rollerblading/skateboarding, no campfires, no BONFIRES, less outdoor sports, more need for sunglasses as a dimmer then as a fasion statement, more money spent on having food deliverd rather then just going out, no Barbaque, less backyard fun, less outdoor play, scrapeing ice off your car, kicking snow off your shoes, less boating, no sandles, no flowers, cold breathing, no themeparks, no water fights, talking on a cellphone in the cold is a pain, filming is difficult, hydro/gas to heat your apartment/home (many people forget this and only think air conditioners are expensive to run), freezing rain, car spinouts, frequent accidents on highways, lonely valentines day, arctic winds, windchill, endless TV Re-reuns, slippery sidewalks, slippery steps, no eating ouside, no picknicks, really bad christmas specials, and I JUST WANT SOME WARMTH!

In summary: I really hate winter.

Monday, March 28, 2005

I can't get behind that.

Recently I listened to William Shatner's new album "Has Been".

I'm not going to claim that William Shatner was a great actor, but there have been far worse, I'm not going to ignore his horrible past in music, but I have to be honest and admit that I really liked some of the songs on this album. Particularly "I can't get behind that" and his cover of "Common people". Remembering his past in music, I wasn't expecting much from this album, but I was surprised when I heard it. I liked it.

I visited some forums where people were almost warring back and forth claiming that he was a hack, some claiming that he was a Genious. One even made a comment that anyone who buys this album should be shot. Come on people, Seriously, if someone releases music you don't like, DON'T LISTEN TO IT! Why are you polluting this world with comments like that? If you are really so angry with the artist, claming he's horrible for releasing this junk to the world, then why are you releasing even WORSE junk to the world by saying horrible things like that? I have an idea, Find your OWN talent, and release something better, and when your interviewed on Jay leno, or your favorite talk show, and they ask you what fueled you to create such great music, THEN you can say that you really didn't appreciate what William Shatner did and you fealt that since it was so horrible and still made it big, that it would be easy for you. No? What do you mean no? Oh, I see, You don't have enough talent to write anything better. Then who the hell are you to criticise what he's releasing?

If you really think he's so bad for releasing junk, His "Junk" was enjoyed by at least a portion of the audience out there, myself included. Your distasteful comments, however, are not enjoyed, by anyone, probably not even by you. Now, I DO try to release music, and I try to do a good job, no, I try to do a GREAT job, but I'm still learning, and things are still in the process of improveing. (hence why you don't see my discs in music stores yet). I'm constantly warned that if/when I ever make it into the music industry that there will always be people who insult you silly just because they don't like you. I know that this will happen, and I can take it, but I still can't understand why people MUST insult people silly. I CAN'T GET BEHIND THAT!

Thursday, March 03, 2005

My Music

Quite a few of the people I talk to know that I write music, some people act amased that music can be written so easilly (Should I be offended?). But it in some aspects it's harder then it looks, and in some aspects it's easier then you'd think.

Usually when composing a song, I first load up FruityLoops (my software of choice) and begin plugging in instruments, creating patterns that both sound good, and match my mood. Then when I have a number of patterns lined up, I begin playing them out with each other to ensure they match up, and changing them till they sound great.

When I feel as though I have something that sounds like a song, I save it, and then export it as a Wave file. I close Fruity loops and load up Cool Edit Pro. With this software I begin tweaking the sound, filtering, and ultimatly mastering my song. I then save it as a final wave (songname_mastered.wav) and also save the MP3 file.

Finally, I edit the MP3 file's ID3 tag to reflect the accurate song name, artist name, album name, creation year, and placeing my website in the comments field. I then post the file to my website ( and presto!

Another form of expression I enjoy, but am not as good at is photography and Photoshopping. One way I express the few talents I have in this field are thru my album covers, although I don't think they are spectacular, they are mine. I also plan soon to create an album cover in Computer graphics, as I enjoy that as well.

I feel as if I am rambling. So I'll let you be the judge.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

My Spoon is too big.

Hi, I'm Steven Wells, You may remember me from such blogs as "Tir-na-blog" or "Social Engineering". But today I'm here to talk to you about things I think are just great. I see a lot of complaining online about all the things people don't like, and upon looking at my own site, I'm guilty of it too, so let's take a moment to talk about what I like.Recently I was leaving my TV on for background noise about a month ago, it happened to be on the discovery channel as the only thing interesting that's on at 4:00 am is "how it's made", a show where they show you, well, how things are made. After that show's conclusion, another show, a new favorite of mine, came on, called MYTHBUSTERS! The show is basically self explanitory. They take 2 or 3 urban myths each show and try to actualy prove or disprove that they could posibly happen. The show has a very good cast, and is just hilarious to watch.I love Pizza from Pizza Pizza. Having food allergies can suck royally, but these guys can make a pizza that works around my allergies, and is just great.I don't drink very often, but when I do, I like Pina coladas, that's right, pina coladas. Some people call it a "Women's drink" (Which I beleive is an unfair generalisation, but none the less), but who cares, I love it. It's not like I enjoy wearing women's clothing (I don't, so no getting ideas).There's a short blog on things that I like. I encourage you to post your own blog on things you like, then send me s message so I can go and check it out.