My Spoon is too big.

Hi, I'm Steven Wells, You may remember me from such blogs as "Tir-na-blog" or "Social Engineering". But today I'm here to talk to you about things I think are just great. I see a lot of complaining online about all the things people don't like, and upon looking at my own site, I'm guilty of it too, so let's take a moment to talk about what I like.Recently I was leaving my TV on for background noise about a month ago, it happened to be on the discovery channel as the only thing interesting that's on at 4:00 am is "how it's made", a show where they show you, well, how things are made. After that show's conclusion, another show, a new favorite of mine, came on, called MYTHBUSTERS! The show is basically self explanitory. They take 2 or 3 urban myths each show and try to actualy prove or disprove that they could posibly happen. The show has a very good cast, and is just hilarious to watch.I love Pizza from Pizza Pizza. Having food allergies can suck royally, but these guys can make a pizza that works around my allergies, and is just great.I don't drink very often, but when I do, I like Pina coladas, that's right, pina coladas. Some people call it a "Women's drink" (Which I beleive is an unfair generalisation, but none the less), but who cares, I love it. It's not like I enjoy wearing women's clothing (I don't, so no getting ideas).There's a short blog on things that I like. I encourage you to post your own blog on things you like, then send me s message so I can go and check it out.

Tir-Na-Blog

When one begins to peel away the layers of their mind when they are bored one night and have nothing better to do, you can create environments that fool you into feeling spiritual, euphoric, nostalgic, or pretty any way you would like. Many people interpret this as a vision, or some other type of legendary folklore, however it is my beleife that this is simply one of the mechanisms in our own mind at work. When you dig into your mind trying to figure out who you are, you mind might not have an answer, so it begins ramdomly throwing stimulus at you to see what you persue and what you discard, hopeing that you can discover what you like and what you don't about your own personality. I beleive that most of the confusion in today's youth could be easilly attributed to the under development of this mechanism.

Many religeous groups in the past have attempted to explore this idea, however they always apply their own templates of what the outcome should be, therefor forcing a certain type of influence on something that should be free to form on it's own. If somoene is more adept to technology then the amish would be detrimental to the development of this person, vice versa if someone was naturalistic and they were being influenced by a group of geeks, then this would be equally detrimental. It is my beleif that people should be free to explore this part of themselves on their own, with no outside influence, other then the support of their friends, familly, and loved ones.

I do not beleive that this particular part of our mind either contributes nor takes away from any spiritual belif system as it's something that our minds have developed to help us define who we are when we have completed the changes of puberty and growth. This is nothing more then a subconsious method of self-development and life-span evolution.

Internal Combustion Brain.

A lot of people these days (and perhaps it's been going on for a long time, and I'm simply noticing it more) love to use unfair and innacurate generalisations to accuse huge groups of people for one or a few people's mistakes. The most recognisable of these are woman saying "All men are....." and the equivilant men saying "All women are.....". The more I hear of these kinds of gross generalisations, the more disgusted with humanity I become. People treat each other unfairly all the time, but to treat everyone unfairly, all at the same time, and insult them, bash them, and be generally rude, demeans the person uttering the generalisation.

Using the above example, I can understand people who just had a relationship problem being upset, perhaps they were treated unfairly, or worse, cheated on. But that is no excuse for calling every member of the opposite gender an insulting name simply because one of them (and perhaps more in the past) have caused them a problem. how do they know that because mr A, mr B, and mr C all cheated on them, that mr X will do the same, for all they know, Mr X will be the sweetest guy alive. he might be the same, he might be even worse, you just don't know. And the only real differences (other then the obvious biological differences) between men and women, are ones created by what is considered socialy acceptable.

If men were raised to play with barbie dolls and to love pink colors, and all women raised to enjoy sports, wrestling, and fighting. Then that's the way it would be. None of these activities are particularly masuline or femenine, it's just that more men are raised to like certain things, and more women raised to like others. I personally see nothing wrong with women enjoying anything men enjoy, or the vice versa, in fact I don't label ANY activity as masculine or femenine. Although I do admit to a few things I submit to, such as a "Guys night", and that I tend to shy away from some femenine activities, not because I don't want to look (and I hate the term used so stereotypically) "Gay" (and I'm as straight as they come, though, I have nothing against gay people) but, moreso because that's how I was raised, it's what I'm used to, and those things tend not to interest me thus.

Gender issues aside, there are also people who love to jump in and insult someone without bothering to think, or use any part of their brain other then the part that assembles speech patterns and/or typing abilities. The sort of people who would reply to this with "Your Gay", or who jump in chat rooms insulting random people for no reason. You can sit there and think "Yeah, I hate those people" but you yourself are one of them. Mind you your probably not as bad, but how many times have you ridiculed someone because they disagreed with you, or because you thought you were right, and turned out to be wrong. I'm not saying you shouldn't defend yourself, but greater care should be taken to keep to the defensive and completly get rid of the offensive tendancies we have. But if you remember only one part of what I've typed here, remember this. NO MORE UNFAIR GENERALISATIONS JUST BECAUSE YOU MIGHT BE UPSET, I plead with you as a fellow member of the human race. and in case you beleive I'm making a generalisation by saying everyone makes generalisations. Well, putting aside that it's psychologically proven that we all do, even me, I am simply pleading with those who do it moreso then others.

The 4 dimensions and Religeon

Someone once said to me that somewhere, some scholor and thelogin had deducted that god had left us the first 10 dimensions to explore, and the 11th is where he left as heaven and so on, now not getting into the technical aspects of 5 and up, It got me thinking, and it almost makes sence, except for one factor that doesn't quite line up. We have the ability to explore the first 3 dimensions as it is, length, width, and height. (X, Y, and Z). However the most popular (and least disproven) line of thought is that the 4th dimension is time. This seems to make perfect sence, as we are mostly 4 dimensional beings, slowly traversing the 4th dimension but withough controll of how we do so, we CAN slow it down by accellerating at a tremendous rate (as we approach the speed of light, time slows down) but that is the extend of our influence over the 4th dimension. we can move backward and forth at will within the first 3, but we cannot skip forward or backward in time. There for if god had allowed us the first 10, or even completly the first 4, we should be able to traverse time at will, or even assuming we learned to do so, then we would be able to go backward in time to meet Jesus, or go forward to visit the second coming (this also assumes that you are a follower of the christian faith, however, in order to beleive "God" gave us the first 10 to explore, this would have to be so). This doesn't make sence, why would god give us ten, when even giving us 4 would undermine his very prophecies. I am then led to assume that either the theory of giving us the first 10 to explore is false, or that the prophecy of his second coming is not based on time. (or for some, that the both of them are false). The only possible explanation would then be that he gave us them to "Explore" in that definition only. Meaning that we cannot traverse, but only sence, and view them. Even still, this would undermine the "faith without proof" concept meaning that we could See the second coming, or see backwards to his visit to earth, and Have the proof we need. I there for discount the theory that god gave us 10 dimensions to explore.

Civilized Debate VS. Insane Screaming.

Why do so many people have to scream like an amazonian Raised-by-animals nut everytime something doesn't go their way. I see no problem in simply and calmly debating a point our untill either one side is proven right, or even if it comes out unresolved, at least both people can come out of the argument without broking anything.

I'll be the first to admit I'm far from perfect, but some people can be so easilly upsettable and so violent it's disgusting. I can yell sometimes I admit, but it's very rare and it always involves either false accusation, or being slandered falsely, and after coming out of those arguments, I feel horrible for having raised my voice. So it makes me wonder what is wired so wrongly in these people's minds that makes them feel the need to scream and yell just because someone said chocolate instead of vanilla.

Someone might have just read that and thought "I yell sometimes but not over something as silly as a flavor", but what you need to understnad is there is almost NEVER a reason to yell and scream anymore. I mean sure people who constnatly interrupt you and raise THEIR voice to shut you out can be frustrating...what am I saying, BEYOND frustrating, but if you don't raise your voice, then you come out of the argument not only looking better (especially usefull in the event of an audience) but you can also just walk off in the middle of their sentance (pisses them off more then yelling back ever will) and if someone is yelling and screaming at YOU in an argument, don't yell back, because someone yelling at you is NOT going to be convinced.

Regardless, Civilised intelligent people simply follow a normal process. If something they don't like is happening, calmly and politely explain the situation and how it effects you to the other party, now I know there are a few situations where this would be stupid, but around the home, and in most situations, this is simply better, more intelligent, and ultimatly, leaves you looking better. Don't think it will work, here's a few tips, if the other person is yelling and screaming, you can simply stare at them with a look of disgust on your face, or if what they are saying is obviously wrong, or easy to disprove, laugh, giggle, even pretend like spittle just flew into the corner of your eye, these things will piss them off even more and perhaps they may get violent, if they do, and hit you, guess what, this isn't the end of the world, not only do you look better, but you now have a LEGAL EDGE over them, heck the worse they do, the better you can screw them over. Cold hard CASH!

So stop with all the yelling, petty bickering, and violence, it will only land you on the opposite end of a jailcell, or loose you most of your friends. Who knows, you might loose them to me, and I'm not much of a person, so take care, and use your brain.

Music alters your mind.

Weather your listning to your favorite song, standing in en elevator listning to your least favorite song, or even Writing a song. Music affects us all in discernable ways. I was just perusing my Winamp playlist when I came acrost some music files lingering on my hard drive that I hadn't listened to since I was 9. I loaded them up and experienced a few moments of pure nostalgia. The wonderfull feeling of being that young again, and remembering what it was like to have no worries beyond "what to sneak into shool tomorrow".

I write my own music under the name "DJ D-Nyed" and I'm always looking to create a new and/or interesting way to create an emotion in a listner. I've been succesfull so far in making my listners feel annoyed, or bored, but I'd much rather give them some of the feelings I have when writing music. To me my music reminds me of both a longing sensation, seeking out something that I may never have, and a sence of energy. Energy isn't always that difficult, all you need is a good beat, and something that fits well to it. But creating that sence of longing isn't always so easy.

Have you ever been just listning to the radio, or walking thru the mall, and hear a song that used to be an old favorite, and that you haven't heard in years, and for that simple fact alone it strikes an emotion into you, like memory. Here's an experiement you can try at home. Find a song that you used to love, if possible, one that you even used to obsess over. It MUST be a song that you haven't heard in a long long time, download this song and play it thru, see what it does to you. The younger you were the last time you heard it, the more profound the effect.

I'm always very interested in "How-To" create emotions thru music. I've learned all the "Classical" ways of doing so, but with the ever increasing popularity of electronic music, rap, and other contemporary forms of music, I'm constantly seeking new ways. I do prefer the instrumental over lyrical, but if anyone has any comments to aid me in my education, please feel welcome to contribute.

Mad Human Disease

People are always fighing one another, it seems that no one really cares about anything but themselves, and how they appear to others, becuase this facilitates their ability to steal energy from them. When you engage in a conversation, one of two things happens, you come out of it feeling either uplifted, or drained somehow. People never seem to realise that there are better things we could be doing. When you are intimate with someone, usually you both come out of it feeling uplifted and energised, that's an obvious one, what other things can you think of that give you a feeling of energy and motivation.

What gives us energy is usually quite different from one person to another, hence why we all like different kinds of music, different TV shows, websites, sports, you name it. And when someone who is drained, notices you with an abundance of energy, they have to beat you down, make you feel horrible, so they can feel better, in a sence, they have stolen your energy, and you feel compelled to insult them back and reclaim this energy. What we need to do is just build up new energy. Then there will be more of it out there, and people won't have such an epidemic of depression. In a sence, look at your friends, look at the people who make you happy in your life, Start careing about them, and when you have that down, try to care, even if only a little, about everyone.